Thursday, October 27, 2011

Hello all... Well just me...

Hello! its great to back blogging i,m working on my Photography web site . I'm excited and Happy about finally doing what i love still working at the Nursing . Yes its still a passion of mine and I love them both so much i dont know which one I like better all I know is that I'm walking in my true calling for a career. I have never been this happy with work. my husband and I are finally working on buying a house and I have started work on this body so that when god decides to bless us with a child I'll be ready a healthy for it. I'm not getting any younger so it needs to be worked on and thought out. I love all my clients and love the joy I get when I show them their final edited picks. I never imagined this much joy when my daddy gave me my first canon. I'm just glad he did. My kiddos are doing great all great report cards( Thank God!!!) so no groundings or punishments for slacking off. I'm glad I have kids that try to do whats right most of the time and when they don't I'm here to remind them. Tommorrow is a new day and I will never get today back but i was Blessed to have it Amen....I love my Family I love the current 226 pound me and I work daily on being better. Here is a great recipe for quinoia i hope i spelled that right salad.  i recently tried this at a health fair and it was amazeing so I'm shareing i hope you enjoy. Psalms 40:17 As for me, I am poor and needy;
                                                                   but the Lord takes thought for me.
                                                                   Though are my help and my deliverer;
                                                                    do not tarry, o my God!

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Im 33!!!! Thank God... Now How can I undue all the damage I've done to this Blessing?

I've officialy been 33 for the last 48 hours and I'm stronger today than I was two days ago. I cant explain what goes on with me when I feel no one is listening to a word I have to say and I keep trying to explain to them this one simple fact. Being looked at as if I'm speaking in that charlie brown voiceWa wa wa wawahhwahh!!!! Well frankly Im tired of itr and just want to be listened to or just be told to shut up because I'm not paying you any attention. Anywho! that being said I'm over it. For now! My Birthday was great I spoke with all my sisters and brothers even got some great FB Happy Birthdays. Talked with My Dear LOveing Eldest most Handsome First Born In the Kingdome of TIFF.I woke up with a prayer and went to bed knowing that I was a Blessed Woman I have beautiful Healthy Kids whom I am very proud of and Glad to call my own. I am as healthy as I can be and I'm thankful for each breath I take. Wan't a big laugh? I was out with my younger sister on the morning of the 3rd. Feeling pretty good about turning 33. When this guy yells Hi Cuttie! to her as she is walking away then turns and looks at me I smile and say I dont think she heard you. He she comes out he says it again to her and proceeds to try and get her phone number mind you he is way too old to get numbers like a teen.Anyway I here Him say is that you're MOM in the car I am only 3 years older than she is! I thought to myself WOW!! I must really look old... I wanted  to cry. These are the reasons why I want to work on me. I've been told I lok 30 since I was 15 years old and when i was 28  was told I was 45. That was like a slap in the face because I was convinced I looked my age then. Turns out I was wrong not that I care weather people think Im older I just don't want to be mistaken for my sisters MOM. I want my children to want to be happy to have a nice looking MOM and not be embarrassed by frumpanista ME. I want to look as good and young as I feel on my best days.My Husband is three years younger than me and I get asked if Im his mom all the time that really hurts because I dont want it to change the way he sees me ( It has'nt however I don't want it too either) So Im starting with the weight and health the spiritual always comes first then all the other stuff like clothing hair teeth quality time with Me. I hope this does not sound conceited but its long overdue. i want to LOVE ME AT MY BEST and I want my Family to love me at it as well.I want to be the kind of lady my sons marry and that my daughter aspires to be and for just a minute I would Love for the MIL to look at me and say He picked right and not see all that she did'nt want for him I am posting picks so you can see what I working with not bad but it can always be better.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

I've finally gotten back to Me!!!

Hello all! My first and last post was back in March and when I bagan on this Journey of discovering me I was overwhelmed and did'nt exactly know what I wanted or who I was at this point in life. For instance I'll be 33 tomorrow and I look in the mirror and I see a 50year old. Now there is nothing wrong with being fifty or looking like You are but I want to look like I'm 33. I want to look vivascious and healthy free hearted and wise at the same time sexy and smart. I know in my heart that Im alll these things inside but I can't get them to show up and show out. I was sick  and still am for the most part with a heart condition and frequent chest pains. Howver I'm healthy in Mind and physical body I just want to look it. So i am challengeing myself to become a better me. I Have finally gotten my business off the ground and feel as though its headed in the right direction. My children are safe , healthy, and Happy. My Husband is wonderful and I could'nt ask for a better person to share my ups and downs with on the friend front I have wonderful men and women in my life to tell me like it is. My Mom is the bestest friend I could have My Dad is great still kickin and doing Him!  My brothers and sister well their brothers and sisters there for me if and when I need them communiction could be better but the Love is stronge ( Our Mama taught us that) I'm on a mission to feel and look better with each passing day and I'll be posting pics so you can see the physical improvement as well. Because thats the hardest thing I've ever had to do but it must be done. i'll also be shareing my favorite scriptures and readings of inspration because theirs no renewed me without a renewed spirit. Recently i've joined the DFW photography club and Random acts of Kindness or RAC i hope to share these experiences with you as well. Mentoring and being mentored is also on the list I want and expect to live a full and fulfilled life. I am glad to be shareing this life withh whomever comes along for the ride. I am not perfect but I am Me ....Flaws and all. God Bless

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

A little piece of Me...

Hello and Welcome to my blog a place where I can be me and share it with the world exactly the way I want to say it to the point with no excuses and no take backs. I am a 32 year old African American Woman. I am Married with three children of my own and five that I though i did not give birth to but claim as mine. I am a daughter and sister, a grandaughter,  and Girlscout troop Leader.Child of God and A friend to many. I would Love to live everyday like its my last but the truth is a lot of the time I am too busy. So I take my beaths in moments like when Im alone with God late at night and he whispers I love you daughter. Or in those early morning hours when Im alone with my cup of  pleasure otherwise known as coffee listening to his voice and the sounds of my children asleep and breathing as I pray for my eldest Son whos far away But close in my heart and always on my mind. On sunday morning while praiseing and giving Thanks or any morning for that matter. These are the moments when I feel I am truly living up to my potential and walking the path that Gods chosen for me. When I feel I can can claerly hear his voice and being lead in the right direction. Then as the Day goes on. Even though I seek to do His will I stumble...I am only Human. But I find myself  hopeing that I didnt offend anyone. Or weather or not Im being to hard on my In laws. I let out a curse and look into the eyes of my Loveing husband  who would never let a curse escape his lips. Sorry it just came out!...I say but really feel bad about it because I try so hard. I wake every morning Blessed to see another day and go to bed at night Thanking God we all made it through the day and asking him to protect us all night. My children Think Im crazy and know that they are My world my Husband and I just live in it. However I am always respectful and curtious and Pray for the world and the People in it daily. I treat others exactly thee way I want to be treated though I fall short on stamina and hours in the day my intent is always to do well and do better today than I did yesterday. These will be those stories I choose to share the ones that show the heart of me...Like I said befor the good the bad the beautiful and ugly. I Have struggled with depression all my life and God ha always been their to lead me out of troubled waters and now i have an even bigger issue I am 60 lbs overweight and trying to lose every bit of it not to be skinny but to be a Happpier, Healthier, Me.